story of my life.

2009-12-22T21:03:00.000-08:00

okay.
i get everything that you mean.
alright, love you too.

2009-12-22T21:02:00.000-08:00

she said:

I miss someone who’s currently in Malaysia right now. I need that someone.

I know it’s selfish of me when I thought of why you had to go when I need

you at a time like this. But I don’t think like that already. I want you to have

your fun there. But when you’re back, I need to talk to you. My personality is

very weird. I’m hard to understand. No one can understand me except for yeah,

my sister. But you, yeah, even you know yourself that you can’t understand me

since I’m quite unpredictable. But you don’t have to tell me that you’re really

trying to understand me even how difficult it is and how difficult I can be. I

can see you trying and really, thanks so much for trying. But yeah, it won’t be

easy. It’ll take time. To you, it seems like as if I only took you for granted. And

that I only look for you when I’m desperate and need someone. I’m sorry.

To be honest, I guess you’re kinda right. Not really, but kinda. But I’m really

sorry and now, I need you, not because I just need someone right now. I need

you because, you really are one of the person that I really need. I’m sorry I’ve

always picked a fight with you. And that’s why we were always fighting. To tell

you the truth, I did that because, I know that you would not give up on me.

And that I know we will still be great friends again. I’ve never fought with someone

so much. Don’t think you’re unlucky because every fight I had with you, made me

trust you more. You are my good friend. Not my best friend, but almost there.

Hurry home, I need you. And, I love you.

2009-12-22T20:52:00.000-08:00

malaysia trip was okay la.
this year was alot of water activities.
like a famosa and the hot water park.
and some others.

i love the seven story slide!
cik in so kental-.-
she went up alright.
she went down too, but by the staircase!she freaked out when we reached the top of the thing.

damn cool.
just that your garments will get squished.
undergarments too for that case.
hahaha.lol.
but seriously.

yeah.
had a room with syafiq.
the girls were bitching in one room.
and belly dancing!
so sads my cousin only includes one guy.
so many girls.
yeah.

one night syafiq was like watching Madu Tiga( P ramlee show)
he was like laughing.
alone.
i was busy on the psp.
heh.

NOTHING MUCH TO SAY.
but ALHAMDULILLAH.
nenek's safe.
she was sick on the way home.
in my family's car.
*anw, it was a convoy.3 cars.
yeah.
she was so weak.
i was so afraid of the worst.
i nearly cried.
nothing wrong with that.
i love you nenek.
though last time you always scold me.
now she's fine.
cause yesterday she said us saying the word hospital.
she jolted up.
cause she hates hospitals.
she doesn't wanna know what's wrong with her.
persuaded much.
THANK GOD.
love you, nenek.

2009-12-09T21:18:00.000-08:00

at last.
i completed one prac paper of maths.
still got loads to go.
its about time i start doing.
3 weeks time and school starts.
i haven't even checked my timetable!

yes.
i can't stop saying that my holidays are boring.
i got some piano assessment cum performance this sunday.
i told my teacher i unprepared.
he say nevermind.
just do my best.
wtf.
it'll be a hell screw up.

okay.
gtg tuition.maths.
hope something interesting turns up someday.
to brighten up this aimless holiday.

2009-12-06T19:50:00.000-08:00

new moon.
it was a little disappointing.
the ending was so ubrupt.
'Bella, marry me.'
that's all.
but the werewolves were cool.
damn big.

so yeah, anw.
worked practically ever night.
the end of hols is drawing so near.
going kl i think, on the 18th.

got some piano performance on the 13th.
i think i wanna tell my teacher that i'm not ready and i wanna withdraw from it.
day in day out.
i do the same things everyday.
so boring.
buying new phone on the 12th i think.
my sis got hers ready.
mine on the way, i guess.

so yeah.
time's going too fast.

2009-11-29T20:23:00.000-08:00

hey! hari raya haji was great.
i did the chasing of the kambengs!
i teach you how.
first must pull one of the back legs.
then when it like stop struggling, must pull the front leg for eg.(if you pull the left back leg, you must pull the right front leg; vice versa)
then must pin it to the ground and hold the feet tight.
yes.
i thought i couldn't do it at first cause i have never done it before.
last year i did the skinning.
anw, both are fun!
don't worry kambengs, you'll be in a better place.
supposed to go nenek house but i didn't cause it ended around 6 plus.
anw, i was in the kambeng place, means everywhere is shit.
never wear boots also.
wee.

okay.
worked every night.
at simpang.
actually not work.
help my family stall there.
okay2.
that's all i guess.

can't wait for 3 dec!
new mooooon!

2009-11-19T01:25:00.000-08:00

Love. Is that what I crave?

If it is, then why can't I find it?
Hate. Does that mean anger?
If it does, then why do I feel hollow?
Pain. Does that mean suffering?
If it does, then why does it feel comforting?
Memories. Are they not images of the past?
If they are, why is there only shadows?
Smiles. Does that mean happiness?
If it does, then why does it hurt?
Life. What does it mean?
Should it mean any of these things?
If it doesn't, then why are they there?

2009-11-19T01:12:00.000-08:00

its been raining lately.
everyday to be specific.
i've started to continue reading new moon since like;forever.
i've been like so into the book.
i was at page 30plus last night.
today around 200.wow.
can't wait for the movie to come out.

i've been staying home for four days straight since monday.
pathetic.
ironic clothes everyday.
thanks syafiq:) for the psp.
but only got fifa10.
idk where to download other games.

going out later.
follow my sis and aunt somewhere.
to buy accessories for her dress for her graduation thingy.
at least i'm going out.
-.-

homework undone.
idk what homework i have though.
ya.
holidays suck-.-
bye.

2009-11-13T06:22:00.000-08:00

wow.

this is the end of camp BRIDGE.
actually not bad la.
the spiritmakers not bad.cheers to them.
probably joel rocked it.
okay.

i'm quite pissed la actually.
with alot of people.
my mum and dad scolded me.
my dad slapped me.
and kicked my ass. 2 times each.
but my fault la.
i shouted.
sorry la parents.
i won't do it again.
i guess.

need to study hard this hols.
omg mr low say like make me damn scared.
exactly one year to o's end.
but i'll still slack la.
try to study la kay fareez.
ergh.
shit.
night.

2009-10-30T06:12:00.000-07:00

hey.
yesterday watched jennifer's body.
not satisfying.
but megan fox was at her best.
just like that.
got pissed with the guys at first.
but after got our nc16 tix, was quite glad.
happy la.
nonetheless it'll be a talking point still.

today got report book ready.
better than i thought.
okay.
still need improve.
i suck still.
campBRIDGE. it better help.
malay O'S.
omg.
need to buck up.
hope so.

2009-10-28T00:32:00.000-07:00

Orange and Pink shoot across the sky,

I can see it from where I lie,
The sun is setting, going to sleep,
The dark surrounds, like the ocean deep,

The stars come, twinkling lights,
Glittering diamonds, What a sight,
I lie in the grass and up I stare,
My body goes numb as I forget all my cares

I like to gaze up at the stars,
So I can forget my cares and all my scars,

I have no one to look after me,
The real me is someone no one can see,
So I'll wait until I find some sort of love,
And until then it's just me and the stars above.

2009-10-28T00:13:00.000-07:00

today was boring.
got the malay mock test.
my essays were both complete, the dialog like one and half page.
means only two points.
cool.
then the paper.
quite easy la.peribahase must study soon.

3I no retainees. yay. we making class t-shirt.
wow. now then make.
herman the tree-eye.coolshit. wth.
i'm so relieved i didn't retain.
results quite bad uh.
but maths. yay.
failed two.
humans and chem. which i expected.
so, fine with it.

tomorrow, pon school i think.
cross country sia.
my house vest nomore.
give hazwan ready.
so if go also,no use.

hope my parents still let me go out after i tell my results.
want go out tomorrow.
in home clothes.yay.
alright.

my sis o's.
good luck sis. and all others.

2009-10-24T02:47:00.000-07:00

hi long-not-updated blog
these few days have been rather boring.
even though i haven't been going to school and going pool EVERYDAY.
everyday.
i'm sick of pool now.

next week getting results.
i wanna see english only.
just realised the importance of english.
if english pass, evrything'll be fine.
that determines whether i'm promoted.

worried much.
i'm just trying to enjoy everybit of these holiday for me since i've got no schoool.
this long holidays will suck if i get into esp.
okay.
toodles.

disaster

2009-09-07T21:07:00.000-07:00

omg. results are disastrous.
hate the english people. can't even moderate a failure of 0.6 marks.

no a1s. highest a2.
lowest erm, the cool. f9.
thanks mr thiru.
i swear thanks.

it made my stuff look much better. not so bad a failure.
science is not for me. humans too.
for eng-.- i think i needa read uh.
maths going strong.
eh china people. stop scoring full marks for everything okay.
you ruin my report card.

omg. bowling the other day. hariz pro or what.
he turkey-ed.! then after that, cock.
i love the high balls i throw. i keep on getting no pins to bowl.
so when i just throw the ball into the empty lane, i get a spare.
i rocked 2nd in the 2nd game.

just had some fun before my death at home.
i need to improve.
three weeks left.
okay people.
distractions aside.
my temptation for pool is very strong.
resist fareez.
oh, trying to.

okay, toodles:)

at last.

2009-08-20T06:17:00.000-07:00

omg. ca's are over.
nearly all three papers are screwed up.
physics especially.
but, i really did study.
i actually woke up at 3 a'm everyday before sch to study.
maybe still not enough.
i'm going to continue to study till sa's.
i hope.
thanks for telling us its very soon mdm ernie, or else i'll suffer worse.

enough of that.
kay.
no p.e.
stupid boy; the one who complained.
titration today.
colour was cool.
then after that, mega fox or is it incredible hulk( as of yesterday).
chords, radius, perpendicular bisector. woo. wow.

after that malay paper, hell it was difficult.
cause i didn't prepare much or should i say, i started preparing 2 hours before the paper?
yeah, that's more like it.
my peribahaser, omg. thanks hussain.
for words, thanks natas.
can someone tell me how to use ialah or adalah for sentences?
i still don't know.
anw, bell rang at 140.
supposed to hand it at 150. i handed in at er, 205?
yeah.

after that.
pool.
omg, i lost my touch.
hariz, tyco uh.
out of four games i won 1. irritating.
herman, don't be so happy, score still 2-2. we still equal.
good luck bernard with your girl.
haha.
i don't like the last ball, 8.
i think its mutual.
so ya, after that, go banquet.
stupid herman, run off first.
left us 3.

kay, saw taitiang( is his name spelled like that,idk), omg, was he retarded. keep on waving.
oi syairah!
i know you tired. haha kay.
haha. sorry for sarcasm, again.

ahah. then took 31, akmal and natas and aiman took the bus at mpl.
we stopped at hosp.
take 17.
omg, aiman, you remembered. kude kepang!
effing retarded know.
akmal, we met him again.
next time just go into the toilet.
but i was scared too.
step je.
haha.
kay.

last thing, thanks for the long advice anw, syairah!

then go home la.
(:
omg, p.s: she's cute. (syairah, not you!but you-know who!)
haha
(:

why must it be like this?

2009-08-14T07:07:00.000-07:00

why?
why like this.
thinking about it plus exams, plus the daily shit that happens.
life is getting so tough. miserable at best.
feeling like this sucks.
and to wake up everyday in the morning thinking about what will happen after that, it sucks.
waking up to expect the same thing everyday.
waking up to go through another effed up day.
waking up just to let everyone do the same things they do to you.
nothing changes.
i seriously don't know where to start.
god, its not working.
nothing's working out.
nothing. the ignorance is disturbing.
sorry for this feeling i have.
hmm.

time is running too fast

2009-08-13T03:28:00.000-07:00

omg, time is just running to fast.
spent most of the time not studying.
trying to.

today,omg, chem, my group me, hariz and azri.
i did the writing, hariz talking. cool.
omg, so gonna die. i don't really get stupid mole concept. i know erm, 6 x 10^23. that's all i think. one mole.

after that, titration again.
i swear, titration is damn cool. i did two titrations in five minutes.
i was damn enthu.
first use methyl orange.
then used screened methyl orange,-.- which was green.
i heard its for color blind people.
all of us tried that. omg. cool. the color was gothic.
dark purple plus green. then mix2 uh.

e maths test was another killer for me. i underestimated further trigo.
it killed me. ca2 results will be disastrous.
i'm trying so hard to study. many sidetracks.

after sch, go siglap kfc.
we splitted. some take bus, some walk. i walked.
i led them to the wrong way.
omg, into the mosque. we turned the other way, but ended up at the same place. ugh.
then we walked. we won. we reached first.
zinger.woo.

okay, akmal, i don't think its worth it missing the four busses.
we wasted time.
okay.

kay la, need study soon.

erm, idk. it seems so hard for me.
i swear being patient is not easy people.
especially when being patient without getting the opportunity to do something else to ease the situation.

akmal,i know what you mean.
kay.

2009-08-07T06:19:00.000-07:00

hmm.
i swear i'll get nervous when i even see her.
alot to say inside, but when i see her, i'll be at a loss for words.
the words will be swallowed down.
friends say, go tell her how i feel.
hmm. idc. i'm sure its not easy for me.
very sure.
when just imagining it, even though just telling by msg, alot of scenarios will be running in my head.
i admit,i'm scared.
even though she didn't like do anything much, i still feel for her. omg. idk why.
people might say i go for her looks.
that ain't true i swear.
its way beyond that.
her style,personality, how she carries herself,her purity and innocence, uh, it just strucks me.
its more than that. idc if nobody reads this but, i write this at my own accord.
i wanna let this out, but just don't have the guts to do it now.
hmm. i'll try. soon. i have to do it.
):

2009-07-30T06:08:00.000-07:00

hmm.
long time since posted,again.
lol.
scool sucked like normal. just a waste of time.
ugh. exams are so soon. iknow people, my blog is so dead.
its never gonna recover from its death until the end of my exams.
so yea. emma watson is so pretty! omg. i haven't watch the stupid movie.
people said it sucked. so i ain't watching.
okay. eh, besides emma watson, i like her so much. i mean another HER.
ugh.
this sucks.
okay gotta go. love her.
night.:)

hmm

2009-07-13T06:53:00.000-07:00

its been along time since ipostd.
guys, i'm lazy. school sucked.
thanks for sending us for detention.
great help.
i'mlazy to type.
good night.

founded a reason to use the computer.:)

2009-06-28T01:49:00.001-07:00

hey my dead blog!
i was back from the holy land last week. okay la.
eh!
i said there's something called albayrak okay,(for the person who didn't believe)
it was a freaking bus.
now my effing sister is using the camera, or not i would have posted the picture.
someone said i lame at the library, now i sad:(.
hmm.
eh, my a maths homework with you people. since i lent you all the a maths homework, syak or akmal! you better do chem so i can copy.
chem homework is out of the world stuff.
freaking difficult. so ya, about the holy land.
kk wait, for the first four days, i went to turkey.
omg. the food sucks. they freaking give you bread and soup everyday! EVERYDAY!
and when i thought i saw rice, well, it was rice. but it was wheat rice.
the taste is so different. so salty. its like been put in dead sea for one month then taken out.
it sucks.
but, i swear, turkish girls are hot! my siters fell in love with the turkish men. haha. k.
the hotel quite nice uh.

then the second four days, i was at medina. okay, my hotel was near mesjid nabawi. it is huge!humongous. millions of people can go there. k
you know in singapore. like waktu zohor and asar, mosque like empty right. at there, every waktu like one whole singapore go pray.
i'm not lying.
something like that uh. i went to rasulllah's makam, which is in the mosque itself. anw, if you had a camera with you, guards won't let you into the mosque. that's where a camera phone shall come in handy.
sadly): mine was at home, resting. i was dying without it.): haha. k, in the mosque, there's this small section in it. actually its not small uh, but for the mosque's size, its considered small.
this place has a different carpet-ing.
it was the place called Raudhah. Rasulullah bersabda that this place is the heaven which is on earth. HEAVEN ON EARTH!it came to life. this pace is one of the most afdhal place to solat or doa. INSYAALLAH kabul. i prayed there for quite a number of times. to pray there, you MUST be heartless, or else when people ask you if they can pray ther for a while, 2 rakaat, they will stay there forever. arabs are very violent.
if you want to pray in raudhah for any prayer time, you must at least come an hour before.AT LEAST. which means around one and a half hours uh, thats if you wanna geta good place so that people won't disturb.
if you get the outskirts of these raudhah. confirm, you will be out of it soon. hah. i kena like that.
anw, ya,
i went to makam baqi' which is beside the mosque. there's makam's of rasulullah cucus, siti aisyah, siti khadijah, uthman bin affan. i forgot, beside with nabi's makam, there are two more beside it, belonging to sahabat, saidina umar and abu bakar.
ya makam baqi' has the tombs of many warriors. who died after wars and stuff. ya.
okay, i fell in love with the azan there. omg, its so nice and it really touched my heart.
subuh was at omg, 3 40 a.m. imagine if s'pore like that, we die.won't pray one.
okay.

okay the next five days, i went to mecca,in ihram! omg, in the bus, my nose bled, my ihram got a little. that was my cubaan, i didn't say anything. we reached tanah haram or okay, masjidil haram at around 9. we started tawafing straight away,i mean after goinb to hotel to put down stuff.
hotel was REHAB al firdaus. REHAB. haha.
okay, right after tawaf-ing my nose bled again. it spilled on the kaabah floor. omg, i left a legacy. lol.:)
the toilet is damn far away, anwyway, i tahan kentot for so long. at last, nose bleed wudhu' batal.!
yes! can kentot. ahhhh. now, i feel fine. then need to angkat wudhu again, for the sai'.
actually i found out, sai' no need wudhu'.(only the next day i found out)
okay forget to see, omg, i'm seeing the kaabah. the direction we pray to! isn't it cool, people pray from all directions, as long as face kaabah. so its like erm... COOL!
okay, sai' was damn tiring. go 7 times from safa' to marwah. the whole thing is more then the stupid 2.4 okay!

then tahhalul, cut hair. i cut a few snips only, so no difference. ahah. done! completed umrah.
the next few days, we do umrah sunnah.

okayHIGHLIGHT! i kissed hajar aswad! 2 times! nearly got more. omg, stone from heaven! on one of my attempts, my seluar terjatuh, cause i was wearing some ikat-ed seluar! omg.
lucky i was in a crowd, nobody saw! haha. actually got a lot mre to talk about. but next time uhh. i tired typing!

k. omg, i'm tired. see ya guys. sch has begun, damn!

i love someone! k.
takecare peeps!

hmm

2009-06-10T08:25:00.000-07:00

i'm at the holy land now.
people.
i'm sorry if i ever have done any wrong k.
i want to change allright.
give me time.
k.
im five hours behind time.
k.
takecare everyone.
:)
gtg.
i'll be back on 20th.
anything, jut give me msn offline msg or tag my blog.
:)

2009-05-28T01:50:00.000-07:00

hmm.
gotten my results.
it sucks.
i'll blog soon.
busy right now.
tomorrow report book.shit.
ya.
tc guys.

2009-05-21T02:23:00.000-07:00

okay.
there's someone out there.
like one of my close friends.
u know who u are.
u really hurt my fcuking feelings today.
if u really meant what u said, don't ever talk to me anymore.
i swear.
everything seemed normal at first, but after u said that, it justs..ergh.
i don't know how to say it.
thanks for telling me what i really am huh.
thanks alot.
i don't want to talk bout it anymore.

now, the other thing that's always in my head.
yea, that person.
oh god, give me patience.
when i start to think about her, i just don't know what to do.
i'll just be at a loss of words.
what happens to me, she might not care, but whatever happens to her, whatever she does, i'll care.
yeah.
patience.

2009-05-20T03:02:00.000-07:00

hmm.
i can't stop thinking.
i'm sure akmal's thinking like-wtf.
yea.
today, ishouldn't have gone to sch.
got a stupeed money talk for one hour then nth to do until the end of the school.
what a waste. but haha. played murderer. organised by syak.
haha.
quite fun uh, i want to be murderer but always never get the card- ace. which means i'm the murderer(hahaXD own rules.)
yea.
that;s about it.
hmm.
i don't know who to express what's in the bottom of my heart now.
i really don't know.
i need to let it all out, but to whom, i don't know.
i know there's someone that has the same feelings for her for a long time already.
i'm sorry if u have any grudges against me.
i'm really sorry.
that feeling came naturally to me.
i don't know why.
but it did.
i'm sorry n for everything i've done to u since we were in sec 1, i'm sorry.
i know how u feel.

i don't know how to express what i feel.
seriously, i feel so plain now.
and empty.
yea.
like the saying goes, patience is virtue.
i'll be patient and hope for the best.

2009-05-18T07:40:00.001-07:00

sorry uh.new skin uhh.
then some stuff cannot be seen.
dont know y.
my mum noisy ready. i must off com.
:)

just feel bored.

2009-05-18T06:07:00.000-07:00

hmm.
i just feel bored yea.
her msg replies sometimes feel so dull and u noe- like dowan to layan that kinda thing.
but yeah.what to do.
just bear.
maybe this is just a test to be patient.
anw, i agree with akmal, now like sec 3.
everyone's only with their class.
i want it to be like last year and sec one.
hmm. time flies. fast. too fast and im so not following its pace.
now, this moment, the feeling just sucks.
its so different. no more like last time, a world of friends.
now only a class of friends.
yeah.
it kinda feels like a plain life now. study, pray(well im trying to keep it to five a day), sleep, eat. n wake up again, thee whole cycle repeats.
i cant get someone off my mind.
yea, now when i look at my phone, like got no one to msg ready.
i swear.
ya, like akmal,me too,
im just trying to be myself,
but ppl dont like,
like the whole world's against me.
im just like living alone in this life now, its feels so plain and empty.
feel like running away from this thing called life.
but there's no way out.
hmm.lets pray hard.
yea, waiting for the day that i can tell her how much i feel for her.
i'll be patient n keep waiting.

exams over.

2009-05-16T01:28:00.000-07:00

yea.at last.MYES are over!
but, wth, results are around the corner.
i think i confirm go ESP sia..
myes so damn difficult. a maths siow uhh.
the linear law graph was so..uhh damn!
I CANT EVEN FIGURE OUT THE DAMN EQUATION!
for my emaths, i borught the graph paper home because it was empty!i did not complete.
nvm la.
i will work harder.
even harder.
holidays coming!
yeah.
but i..
erm nvm.
yea..so have fun.
time for a break.

fcuk la ehk

2009-05-11T22:25:00.000-07:00

eh..korang semue eh...
nk bbual, tulis namer.
tk tau type ehk, jgn nk pkai namer aku plak setan.
tkde bodek per nk tulis namer.
bbual takot2.
eh, aku tk heran la samer korang semue eh.
get a life la.
korang nk tag.
tag la smpai penat.k.
tanx utk buat tagboard aku full.
spam tau.
thx uhh budak2.
thx k.
lamer2 penuh.best.
yeah.

exams r fcuked.

2009-05-07T20:31:00.000-07:00

damn.
ss.chem.
in 2 days.
2 f9s!ill be shocked if i dont get it.
i study chem, Q.a like sio cos tchr say impt.
then, in the ppr, got one or two only!
the one i nvr study at all, structures, conquer the whole ppr sia!
wth!
ytd maths okay lah.
but guess what.
got graph paper right.need to hand in right.
i nvr!
for what,whole ppr empty hand up uh.
i nvr do shiaa.
ya,i gtg.
i want to study uhh.
got, physics history n a maths nxt wk.
yea.
out.

uhh.

2009-05-01T06:16:00.001-07:00

ehk,
whoever r u ppl. dont like, say face to face uhh.
korang semue bbual blkg, tkde bodek perhh!
aku tkde kacau krg.
stare2 semacam.
ingat betol2, ape adeh aku kacau samer krg.
pls uh ehk.
stop it sia boys.budak2 uh krg.
aku tkde hal ngn korang semue.
kau nk ckp aku ni jahat, aku terimer.
tpi aku tau, aku tkde buat salah kt saper2 skrg.
.tpi tgk uhh krg sendiri campur samer saper.
bukak mater btol2.

***********
yea.
now, im f-ing stressed about my sa1.
im trying my best to study.
i wana do do my parents proud.
i will study hard.maybe ill not blog till sa's over.
im keeping alot of stuffs to myself yea.
im so pissed with with vs boys nowadays.
some stare2.some slap my friends.haish.
pls realise who u r.
u slap an innocent guy.
yea.
k.i want to mu now.ot nth else to think abt now.
bye.life's aint going my way.

hmm.

2009-04-23T06:37:00.000-07:00

now i noe.
how friends can hurt.
what friends can do.
i do not know the world yet.
yea.
but no matter what happens,i believe in my principles.
i noe my doing is right now.
i am trying y very best to change and be the best i can be.
to treat ppl well.
to treat ppl with the respect that that they deserve.
last time, i did alot wrong.
im trying to make up for it.
n for this sa1, im working so fcuking hard.i dont want to disappoint my parents,over and over again.
i appreciate whatever they have done for me, now's the time for me to pay pack, i may not have the money to repay them back but i will repay them thru my hard working.
yea.
sorry if im emo.
i really realised that everthing wrong that i do, my mum will not have to find out.
the truth will surface by itself.isnt that great?nope.for me luh.
now i cant go pp animore.
da kena caught. my parents dont believe i do my revision there and do my hw. anione who saw me do my work there can tell my parents.
haha lol.
anw ya, i not an alim person if anyone thinks i acting alim.
i really want to change, for the better.
and i swear, i need help.
im a weak soul.
yea.
yeah, i somehow now got motivation to smbhyg, then like rajin like that.
haha lol.
yea, .4th april is sa1.
first ppr is hml!
damn peribahase!im gona swallow the peribahaser list man, or i blender the peribahaser list, make into aqueous peribahaser!then drink!confirm can memorise.try it out.
haha.:)then on wed got chem!fcuk die2.
haha, anw yea, i gtg,want to mug!
k.
workhard friends.thanks for those who have been helping me!
i appreciate!
k.
tc ppls.:)

study huh?

2009-04-18T07:38:00.000-07:00

saturday.

baik.

i nvr go band today. i go tuition then go home,first.
i go home because my mum ask me sidai baju!
i nvr sidai, cannot go out! i hang all uhh.i stupid, the kering one, i also hang.sorry luh!
i dono right!hah.after that, i going out that time,i didnt know my sis was supposed to be home.
my mum say take money from her.
i call her.
she say she at library.she tell my mum she at library.
wttf!i otw to library, she call me, she say she actually from sch!not at library.if us, tell parents we at sch, but we at lib.but she, tell at lib, but at sch!
haha.then meet her at tamp int. after i scolded by my mum, i scold my sis, its called, distributing anger.
lol.
after that i go bugis to go to national library.
i tell aiman, akmal and haziq , wait for me cos i dono go thr, fcuk!when i go there, they say they otw to the library,i was like, WTF!i dono how to go there sia!
then i wait outside topman, they fetch me.
haha lol.
i dono y today alot ppl wear fedorra sia.
i oso
i tink my one nicest.
then aiman want to wear.
hahah.
sorry aiman, it works better than me.!then my eyes drop!i mean, contacct lens!
haha.
retarded.
haha.
after that i mesjid sultan to pray!not to see girls!
haha.
then go home,next wl, victoria vs tkgs!
showdown(said farahin)
haa.lol.
anw, after that i go piano lesson.
who believe uhh?farahin believe.
hahaha lol.
my frens dont believe.but they saw me play before!i want to learn warmness on the soul-piano!
who noe, teach!cos that one got no score!
ok.
lol.
after that i go home and lepak!then slack at home, then now, want to sleep.
goodnite!mafia wars rock!:)

im tiredd

2009-04-17T07:00:00.000-07:00

wassup.!

hey anw, u noe the four hearts on my skin, that's the navigation thingy.
i actually dont know.akmal told me. thanks.
yea. i know my blog damn plain.dont critisize.
haha.lol.baek uhh.just now got sectionals.but i never play.i flu.n fever.actually got athsma also.
but i never tell my mum.
or not she kecohh.me and akmal took ppictures in our 6th bus!because the bus was empty at the upper deck!cool pe!u onoe y i said six buses?
that's not it, i took 7 buses from school to go hom today! should have reached home by like 6 10.but ii reached at 7!
7 buses!
31 from sch, to the nxt stop cos my frens wern't in the bus, they in the next one, i paisey.then from that stop, took the nxt 31 to bedok, then took 2 to the nxt stop, then took 28 to the nxt stop, then cross over to the other side, took 45 to tanah merah, then afr that, took 31 to hospital, then took 17 hme!plan to waste time.or is it?
hahah.wtvr.i got concession
anw, idc cos i got concession!i want to aim to take 10 buses home!then keep increasing the number!
but akmal left enough only gfor the last bus, so imagine that,he could have saved like 2 + on ez link!actually he's ezlink not enuff.he used coins on the last 31.hah.budget uh mal, gy use concession luh.
anw, quite tiring luh!if anyone see me like on everystop on the way home..u should know what im doing!setting new record!
haha.anw..yea dats it for today.
eyh, sorry wrong-farahin, i msg-ed the wrong one! haha.
paisey siol! u say meet at ymc.but i nvr will. my mum dont let go ymc!
haha.ok.
so yea!goodnite guys.:)

2009-04-16T05:25:00.000-07:00

monday.13 april.
basically nothing much.
parkway-ed.for a while.
then go tampines one.
go with isk,akmal and who uhh.forget the last one. we go to the place.fcuk.big or what siaa.
fareez jakon ok.
got the japanese shop.tf?go in must queue one.bullshit.shop like that also must queue.aw, the stuff all normal what.t shirts.
at MESSY, siol!the t shirt cibay nice!after that met.dono she there also.
she ask me if i want to buy t shirt, she just gaji what.so kayer luh.
i want but got no time.she go with her friend.after that go home.
but yeah.
parkwae rocks more.
:)

tuesday.
got physics remidal.then g parkway.
got najwa there.
aiman happy uhh shiaa.
then they ask us do maths qn for them.
then all the boys enthu uh.girl ask to do.
i also join uhh! then all fight for the book to do a bloody qn for kc girls.
haha.particular vs boys.
aiman really had fun right.he damn happy after that.good luck aiman with najwa!
yeah.basically nothing much today.yeah.

wednesday.
fun or what.school finish 140 because e poh l need to go drama.then he say stay in class.
dont say we stay in class, we go out of school sommore.but wait.we want to go mesjid ok!
we want to jaywalk so can go mesjid faster.then the guard cibay talk alot.
then i scared ready, he say principal there.
he there or not, i scared also. guess what we plan to come in from the front gate after we exit thru side gate!
joke!
then change mind uh.dowant to act dumb, go back into side gate then go sembahyang at the tempat solat at tangger there.
i imam.baik.alim.haha.
we want to fast2, cos got oral, then want to go parkway, akmal n hariz want to cabot esp.
then got some particular ppl, refused to let us go first, even though we come first, they say their class first, eh.fcukk uh eh. fcuk uh.
i thought friends will hepl each other and let us go first, but no, he refused.then obviously,tcikgu listen to them la. e comes before i.cool.
just be patient la eh fareez. i thot melayu in their class diff from ciner..
but yeah. same.
aku no offence.tpi aku btol geram ngn korang peh class uhh.bnyk busted us.kiter kde buat apaper, korang pauto kiter.
yea.so ya, after that go parkway also uhh,but late.
do some work at mac, then proceed.
then right, got someone, ask her she where was she at parway, dont want tell.
secret2 pulak!haha.
after that, i met my anak 33.then head home.
at night tuition then balek tiredd shiaa.
anw, man u won!
yeah.
liverpool out isit?huh liv supporters?
hahah.
dats it.

thursday
baek after school, berwin ask us go for debate.wtf?
i dont even know how to debate.
he say if win, get plasma tv.
eh fcuk la.
intra sch cpmpetition get tv uhh?
like that inter school, get house siaa.
wth laa.
liar.
then he say if never go, nxt week, whole class detention for the whole week.
sounds like fun!
haha.
dont mind detention.better then debate.
haha.
anw, we go ouse of pool!
i play like 8 games, cibay fun!
haziq, keep on using pussy stick, yusof also, pussies.
i also got use!
haha.
baik, u noe what i go the oilet, the door not locked.i open, then got one uncle shitting!sit like what one the toiletbowl!
i say, sorry2.
haha.
imagine that, open door, an idiot siting on toiletbowl.
haha
!
haha.
but seriously.pool fun!
herman baikkk.
nvr go school.
but go pool!
hahah.
then i lose to u!
tycho.i will win nxt time.u watch out.
yusof lose to me two times!
haha.
idoit.
idiot.
ok.
yea.
need to star revising siaa.
exam 5th may.
work hard guys.
goodluck everyone for ur upcoming exams.work hard.cheers.

2009-04-13T05:37:00.000-07:00

ok.from the SYF dae.
i'm sure we did great.
we played GWH standard allright.
for the set piece uhh.like fcuking nice. swear. thats the best we ever played.to me.
but the bloody 4 american n one jap gave us GOLD!
shit.
forced to be happy.:(but yea. 2 years ago, we silver. like wtf!
gold for this year.ok la.
go back sch, kena fcuk by friends, they say congrats, gold...n they said'without honours.'
idiots.
but nvm uhh.
face it.
st pats fcuk sia.
dono how many time get GWH.goood. no need go any lessons. school finish ready by the time i come back. hah. after that, pp!
miss that place.
last time everyday go, now like dono what shit.so little.
then we go that cd shop, n sat the damn sofa, and camwhore!omg! ppl looking, but we dont care! check it out.yea.thanks to aiman. his phone like pwerful sia!
bloody 8 megapixels.
afther that go home.
baek.
crazy.
i met my anak 33 for a while.
lepak2.
chat2.
then go home uhh.
i go home home straight away.
bathe then slp.
never pray also.
cheyy..pray per.
yea.
sometimes.now trying to be most of the time.fareez!need to change!
yea.

thursdae.9 april.
had my first sectionals with my sec 1s.
not bad, they can play b flat on first day.good start.
better than me when i sec 1. hmmm.after that cabot siang uhh.
got tuition.(like real...?)-many would say.
haha.:)
lepak for a while then home sweet home.!
yeahh.

friday.good friday.damn good sia.
plan to go out with friends.but parents dont let.like normal uhh.used to it.
yeah.
morning did nth.go breakfast with tok n nenek. then balek.then change.then go smbhyg in baju kurong ok!
not t-shirt!
alim!
like akmal.never go.true.shameless dickhead.petang go bowling at downtown.best.
park car until the top.
reach the place. i see the scree.waiting list no. 60-76.
i tot got 16 ppl waiting ok la.for a downtown.but guess what!
when i asked. here were 76 ppl waiting!
76!76!wtf!wtf!!WTF!untill tmrw oso nvr get my turn sia like this. then we change plan.
go safra.
got 4 ppl waiting ok la.play pool first.guess what.evri other turn, my white ball go in!skill!haha.then at night go eat then head home!

saturday.
my mum forced me to vacuum the whole house.
when i do smth wrong she scold, i retaliater luhh.
i pissed sia.
then i jam one the piano(normal thing, when i angry, i slam the piano keys.)
at night go smpang.ya.then ge t10 ux.
haha.
then sunday go madrasah.i cabot.
i stay outside.ngaji oso cabot!
haha.
monday.today luhh.
cock uhh.
scolded by mdm ernie.
yalah.
le to tchr becos want to porn resiency course.
i sucks la.
learn how to fight.
fight?omg.
pussy.then we see class photo.coolness.
see.i excited sia.all cock face!

so yeah.cool right.
yusof face fcuk.
r.o confirm like.zameer dont say uhh.fcuked up paki!
hah.akmal terkencet.i sot.aiman step cute.hadi-wtf.got one pic shiwei kiss raghu tits.shit!i saw!ltr i update.ok?
eh.
i neeed to study.tomoro acids and bases.come on 3i!
eh..idiots.3I rocks ok.no shit.
3I all the way!yeah!
ps:i'm busy ok.no more feelings for no one. k.sorry.
:)

SYF fever!

2009-04-06T06:27:00.000-07:00

baikkkk!
tomorrow is D-day.
SYF.
shit.omg.damnit.
a lot of schools have passed.
tomorrow for band no. 125, VSCB, i shall play my very best!
but i sooo scared la shey.
shiet!arggggggggggggggghhhh!
if get GWH, i will go crazyyyy!:)
just now lepak siket org perh.
mane pergi anak 33 semue.
lepas tmrw, i shall lepak more often, n bljr more often!
k!
ehk help2 me do2 my blog!
a bit diff!
wait no.
alot diff!
k
:)
p.s: im sorry, u-noe-urself, i just wana be alone k, obviously i care for your feelings. its just that,it aint going right, and i am doing this for the better. i'm sincerely sorry.

damn.

2009-03-31T16:58:00.000-07:00

:(
e learning.
boring sia.
i would rather go to sch.
like.
there's no one online even.
shit!
today elearning is SS n sciences!
the subjects i hate.
summore got specific time to do each subject.
just give all at once cannot uh?
waste time sia, want to get this shit over n done with.!
damn it.this sucks
:(

2009-03-27T06:48:00.000-07:00

erm.
ok.
this is my 3 yr old blog with only 7 posts inside.but all deleted ready.
now, when i use the computer,like got nth to do.
so blog luh.
i try to.
expert teach me.
lol.:)n i really mean teach.
me suck in blogging.so true.i admit.k
hmm:)